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Spinning and Closing In

July 2, 2013

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I don’t know how other bloggers organize their posts, let alone their thoughts! I can truly do this all day because my list of topics keeps growing and growing. I’m really getting the hang of posting and dealing with the “behind-the-scenes” and there is still so much to learn! It’s nice to have deadlines with Mommy Maestra and Momagama, however, with MFBS anything goes when it can go. I just want to make sure that if there is a new guest visiting my blog, the first post they see is something that is helpful and inspiring and something that makes me proud.

Anywho, why the speech? I was going to write about something else last night! My mom and I took the kids to Barnes and Noble yesterday morning and received a tornado warning while there! While I debated on what to do the power went out. Luckily, we were the only ones in the kids’section (it was 9:05am). I don’t know what happened to the employees so I just made sure we were away from the windows and kept monitoring the storm with my iPhone. I found some great educational stuff in the dark to share with you and happily went home with my ideas for this post. I then decided to take advantage of the rainy day full of weather warnings to go through piles and piles of six years worth of boy clothes.

AND while doing that all day…I got a little down. My trunk is full with clothes to donate, I have a tote filled with the best hand-me-downs for a great friend, and the boys’ closets and drawers are soooo neat and organized. Very accomplished indeed…but so melancholic. Because, with the exception of a few really special pieces, all the baby clothes are gone. I no longer have a tiny baby in the house. Jordi has been walking for 2 weeks (see the video here!), Santi is starting preschool this Fall and Diego is 6 going on 15 (eye rolling, really?).

I’m having a hard time saying (although I say it ALL the time), “No more for me!” I love that I’m starting to have more time for myself, that I am working a little now (that’s hard to say too!) and the difficult baby stages are done. Even though I wouldn’t trade the sleepless nights for anything in this world, babies are hard! I know the stages my boys are about to enter are hard in a different way. I love my boys. I love doing this. It just feels like a huge part has closed in on me. Babies add life to yours, to your spouse’s and to your other children’s. I never thought I could love a second baby as much as I loved Diego and even remember crying in his room and apologizing to him while he slept the night before my scheduled c-section. You all know you there is a lot of love to go around. It is endless.

How do you manage your family’s next phase together? Am I being weird for wanting to just savor this and not let go? Why is it so hard to say, “This is it.”

I told you my thoughts were all over the place! I just don’t want to wish the time away.

Ps. It WAS a tornado! During the 2003 NYC blackout, I was in a bookstore too!

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12 Comments

  • Reply Jenny July 2, 2013 at 9:30 am

    I completely understand how you feel. I go through the same phases. I know have my youngest going into 7th grade and my oldest going to be a freshman. In 4 years she willbe done. Im im denial and feel old lol. It goes way too fast and want to keep them with me forever.

  • Reply maritza July 2, 2013 at 6:29 pm

    as always, I LOVE reading my daily Betty-dose 🙂 you have this wonderful writing place where in the future you can always go back to and reminisce your feelings and thoughts.. you will always have this podium and your children can read all about it 🙂

    I bought myself a journal for my girls and have been wanting to write about the dos and don’ts but to be honest I’m afraid to start. Keep writing Betty, keep writing xoxox

    • Betty
      Reply Betty July 2, 2013 at 10:11 pm

      Aww thanks Maritza! Tonights post is PERFECT for you!! Did you read my mind 😉 ? Or I read yours!!

      I recommend for you to write. Public writing (or blogging) isn’t for everyone. I hope my kids appreciate it one day. This is for them but also for so many more. I think I’ll be getting one of these journals I am recommending tonight. Something a little more private for them.

      Thank you for amazing support. xoxo
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  • Reply Jacky July 2, 2013 at 10:31 pm

    Its hard seeing your little one get older and move on to the next stage. I only realize that now because my little one is 15 (16 in a few months!) and I had her so young that I couldnt WAIT to see her get older. I wanted my sleep, I wanted my freedom back. Sad to admit but its the realism for moms that have their kids so young.

    Now i get misty eye when I see a little two yr old. I know I didnt enjoy those times because I was in such a rush for her to hurry up and grow up. Now that she’s 15 I treasure every moment, and that is not easy with a teen. But def enjoy the stages mujer. She (my daughter) just started wearing makeup and it was SO cool to teach her how. I love seeing her grow into a young woman. You just have to enjoy the new and treasure the past.

    Great post, thanks for sharing 🙂
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    • Betty
      Reply Betty July 7, 2013 at 8:36 pm

      Awww! Thanks for sharing Jacky! It’s great to hear the perspective of a mother of teenagers. I bet every stage is amazing! Since I had this “aha” moment, I haven’t been able to stop myself from savoring it all in. I don’t want to miss a thing. xoxo
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  • Reply Mabel’s Labels July 3, 2013 at 12:01 am

    […] was just crying to you the other day about my babies growing up too fast and look what has come in the mail! I am getting ready for Santi to go to preschool for […]

  • Reply Jen July 3, 2013 at 7:29 am

    Betty, I love all your posts. I too really, really, really miss the baby phase. It took me a year and a half to get over the fact that we couldn’t have another little one and so I too sometimes hold on to the thought of wanting them to stay young forever. I love every little dead weed Matthew brings me and I love Sophia’s homemade cards and I love pick up time at school when they jump up and down to see me. Time really does fly. Children really are our teachers in so many ways and they bring such joy! (even when they fight 10 times an hour over legos… ha ha ha ha) love your posts! thank you for sharing this….

    • Betty
      Reply Betty July 7, 2013 at 8:38 pm

      Thank YOU for commenting Jen! So sweet to hear moms share this with me. I really appreciate all the shared experiences. You guys are the best. Give your babies an extra squeeze tonight. xoxo
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  • Reply Yvette S July 3, 2013 at 11:09 am

    Great post! Glad everyone is safe. I actually went through those feelings when Lia graduated pre-k and went on to kindergarten. I had all these crazy thoughts about how she was too little to go to ALL day kindergarten. Where would she sit at lunch? Will she be ok carrying her lunch tray all by herself? Gladly, she did so well without me! Feelings of relief, happiness and sadness all at the same time! On her last day of school I felt like my little baby girl is growing up so fast. It sunk in because she will be starting 3rd grade. Before I know it she will not be so little anymore. All those feelings are back now with Eric. He will start kindergarten next month and I AM NOT READY! He’s my only boy and she’s my only girl. Time does really go by fast with kids.

    • Betty
      Reply Betty July 7, 2013 at 8:41 pm

      OMG this means I will go through this again, right? With every stage! Santi starts pre-school and then Jordi…and then graduations and weddings!GAH! It won’t end and I’m the biggest SAP! LOL thanks for sharing. I know I am not alone. You ladies are my support….thank you. xoxo
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