Guys, I’m starting to unravel again. I’m absolutely exhausted. Do you know how I know I can’t do any more? I stop writing, I stop doing social media, I snap at everyone around me and I wish for the day to come to an end. Geez, I just declined a thirty minute break to go get a manicure. My shoulders are rocks, my face and head hurt from tension. I’m a mess. A few days ago Diego asked if I was in a good mood. It’s starting to show.
What happens when what you love to do starts taking a toll? I love to workout and perhaps I’m doing too much of it. I love to write and read into the late hours of the night but maybe I need to close the computer for a bit? When I start to think that what I do doesn’t really matter, I think, “But I write to my readers about staying positive!” and I feel like a huge phony. When Diego asked me if I was in a good mood, he asked me because he was surprised that I was in a good mood! He was thrown off by my smiles and sweet voice. Poor kid. I have three boys that obviously need to know all about different emotions but right now it’s off balance and they are seeing more of my negative side.
Just yesterday I wrote a Positive Series post and I truly meant every single thing I said. All of those posts are written with so much happiness and so much energy. I always write with true and good intentions. There are days I feel I need to also be honest of my not-so-happy moments. I work hard, really hard at this and at being a mom, a wife and a friend. I believe that many people need an everyday push and that’s why I’m here.
The internet is an amazing place and I found this on my Twitter feed today!! In a nutshell, I will concentrate on setting my reset button. I will be more conscious of staying away from my phone. No checking analytics, Facebook, Twitter…etc, every hour. I will not workout today, I will not write unless I’m writing with a smile, I will sleep more than 6 hours for the next few nights, seriously.
How are you feeling? What do you need to “hit esc” on for a bit?
See you back here on Monday. Fully rested. 🙂 xoxo